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I can't take this anymore.
I can't do it.
In all my waking hours and in all my haunted dreams I have to contend with this immeasurable loss I carry inside; and it's crushing me. It's tearing everything from me. And I just want it to end.
Nothing changes anymore; nothing feels alive. I can't rid the morbid detachment I harbour from the rest of reality; the desolate tragedy of my bereaved, half-light existence.
I realised very quickly after I lost my best friend that I couldn't physically live without him. From the moment I witnessed his shame-filled demise, I've found it almost impossible to breathe. His absence is choking me, engulfing me in its hopeless, endless void.
I need him here. With me. Next to me. Close to me. I need his scent, his smirk, his coldness, his flaws; his beautiful imperfection. The world is dead to me without him. It is bleak, flavourless, ugly and crass. He was my one light; my defected salvation.
And he left me.
Left me to join the records of the earth; the timeless space after life, where no-one is searching anymore.
And so I decide. I will find him.
Will he remember me? Will he see my face and offer a smile of recognition? Or is it dark and cold where he is; devoid of feeling, and anything he would recollect? I care not. I will find him.
There is one last bullet in my gun. One last bullet that will send me to his side once again.
I close my eyes with my final thought of this world; and it is simply a name.
Which I will call forever until we're one again.
I can't do it.
In all my waking hours and in all my haunted dreams I have to contend with this immeasurable loss I carry inside; and it's crushing me. It's tearing everything from me. And I just want it to end.
Nothing changes anymore; nothing feels alive. I can't rid the morbid detachment I harbour from the rest of reality; the desolate tragedy of my bereaved, half-light existence.
I realised very quickly after I lost my best friend that I couldn't physically live without him. From the moment I witnessed his shame-filled demise, I've found it almost impossible to breathe. His absence is choking me, engulfing me in its hopeless, endless void.
I need him here. With me. Next to me. Close to me. I need his scent, his smirk, his coldness, his flaws; his beautiful imperfection. The world is dead to me without him. It is bleak, flavourless, ugly and crass. He was my one light; my defected salvation.
And he left me.
Left me to join the records of the earth; the timeless space after life, where no-one is searching anymore.
And so I decide. I will find him.
Will he remember me? Will he see my face and offer a smile of recognition? Or is it dark and cold where he is; devoid of feeling, and anything he would recollect? I care not. I will find him.
There is one last bullet in my gun. One last bullet that will send me to his side once again.
I close my eyes with my final thought of this world; and it is simply a name.
Which I will call forever until we're one again.
"We didn't spend our life together. And I will miss you forever."
Oh man. I had all the feels writing this. It's kinda wrong how much I enjoy writing angst with John basically being emotionally ripped apart
Not sure if this should be in poetry, but, it's more free verse than a story, so....ehh.
I got inspired to do this by this gorgeous song that shares the title, and also used a few of the lyrics. [link]
Breaks my heart that the vocalist died late last year. Such a loss.
Oh man. I had all the feels writing this. It's kinda wrong how much I enjoy writing angst with John basically being emotionally ripped apart
Not sure if this should be in poetry, but, it's more free verse than a story, so....ehh.
I got inspired to do this by this gorgeous song that shares the title, and also used a few of the lyrics. [link]
Breaks my heart that the vocalist died late last year. Such a loss.
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Ohhh no!!! It's so beautiful, but so sad. Wonderful, wonderful writing, well done.